while the momentum's still here.

well, yeah. it's been days but i really wanna write about it, so maybe that's why the momentum's still here. kasi usually it only lasts about a day and pag di ko nablog, wala na. :)) oh well. i should start now before the moment's gone :)

i just want to thank you for being there,
for giving me everything i need,
especially the warmth of your love and care
i owe to you every breath i breathe

about what you did the other day
it made me feel special in a way
your thoughtfulness brought me happiness
now it's up to me, to take care of the rest

i just wanna tell you that i changed
im still me but im not the same
you will know how much i really did
when i make you proud of our name

i am grateful for everything you do
i just thought i could do it too
someday you will be proud of me
that's the only thing i can guarantee

since the day i lived, you're by my side
watching my every move as my guide
you only want to protect me right?
that's why you don't want me late every night

though we had fights with each other
that's natural for a parent and daughter
when we always argue and yell
'cause there are things i couldn't tell

still i love you, my dear parents
you took care of me, your family
you're the one whom we can most depend
that's why i'll say thank you unexpectedly

haha. ayun! may pang philo na ko! haha! it's like hitting two birds with one stone! :)) yehey! :D

bored eh. :P

well ayun, umandar na naman ang ka-emohan ko. at chaka boring eh. :)) wala lang naman to. parang nursery rhymes lang :))

i cant do anything but to turn away from you, but all this feelings inside of me are true.

i cant see you anymore, but just a glimpse of you again will make my heartbeat faster just like before.

i still cry because you didnt know, but i cry harder regreting that i let go.

just go to where your heart yearns and i will be happy, though pain will be there knowing it is not me.

i saw you yesterday, and it seems you're doing okay, i wish i could be the same.

i really want you to know but thinking of rejection stops me from saying so..

its a pain to think of you, i wanted to forget, but dont want to from the day we first met

is it called love? this kind of feeling? the feeling of happiness and pain, the feeling of something you will never gain?

let me feel sad,

at least then i can feel that i am still alive.

yun oh! haha. isa nanaman sa mga gawa gawa ko :))
ang sabog kasi ng utak ko ngayon eh. oh well. :D

hindi niyo naman kasi ako naiintindihan.

ano magagawa ko. eh sa hindi naman nila ko maintindihan? kasalanan na nila un. sila naman kasi ang walang panahon para makilala ako. tapos sasabihin nila na ako ang may kasalanan? tae.

iaapply ako lang ang natutunan ko sa school. sinasabi kasi nila na kung ano ano lang naman daw ang natututunan ko dun. pano kung ang sabi samin na iba iba ang paningin ng mga tao? so malamang, ibang ang pananaw ko sa pangyayaring yon kesa sa kanila. at ano ba? hindi ba nila alam na halos lahat naman ng kabataan nagdaan sa ganitong stage? hay nako.

bakit ba gusto nila parati sa sila ang tama? tapos sasabihan nila ako na hindi sa lahat ng oras ikaw ang tama. ang labooooo.

tang ina. gusto ko lang maglabas ng sama ng loob. ayoko sila harapin. andami kong gustong sabihin sa kanila. lahat as in. praktisado ko pa. paulit ulit na lahat sa utak ko. narerevised pa. pero bakit ganon? tila hindi ako makapagsalita sa harap nila? bakit pag kausap ko na sila eh wala na kong magawa kundi umoo at mag sorry at sumunod nalang muli sa kanila? duwag ba ako? o ayoko lang masaktan sila? siguro. at isa pa, nagsasawa na din ako sa paulit ulit na pagaaway na ganito. nakakabingi na. sawa na ko. ayoko na. hindi ko lang masabi.

ano ba ang tama? ano ba ang dapat gawin?

dapat bang hayaan ko ang sarili ko na ilabas ang lahat ng galit ko sa kanila dahil sa hindi nila pagkilala sa tunay kong sarili at hayaan silang masaktan sa mga sasabihin ko? o dapat ko nalang ba itong palampasin at hayaan nalang ito tulad ng mga dating pangyayari tutal sanay na ako sa ganito? hay nako.

hindi naman kasi nila ko maintindihan.