when i see my prince

"I long for the day when I can finally see your face
To touch your hands, to hear your voice, to feel your kiss
The day when I will meet the one who fell from grace
The man who fell to catch my fall from the abyss"


Finally inspired again! Was able to make a poem after a gazillioooon years! Well, this just made me think about that one person whom God will give me. And I know I will meet him in God's own time. :)

20 Wishes For My 20th Year

Only a few days to go til my birthday and xmas, and I am hoping that someone loves me enough to give me at least one of the following that I listed that I wish to have. Thank you, Santa Claus! I've been a very good girl. HAHAHA.

1. To get my driver's license! So I can go out and drive alreadyyyy!! :)) 

2. I wish that my DSLR's LCD will be fixed. (or at least have some money to fix it.)
UPDATE: Aplhie's home and fixed!! YEY!! Tho that cost me my xmas gift from my parents. :| :))

3. 2011 Planner. Already got one! Thanks to Jen Muñoz! <3

4. An Ipod Touch (latest model) Never had a new one since the first Ipod Shuffle 512 MB. HAHAHA



5. New External Hard Drive 500 GB. My 250 GB is 90% full already. I need more space! :))

 

6. Sophie Kinsella's Shopaholic and Baby & her new book, Mini Shopaholic! I looove Becky Bloomwood!
UPDATE: A friend told me someone already bought the Shopaholic and Baby for me! YAY!! :D

 

7. Stephenie Meyer's Eclipse and Breaking Dawn from the Twilight Saga. Not that much of a fan, but I want to finish reading it.



8. Cute Earphones/Headphones. I broke mine a few days ago. Anything cute and matibay will do. Wag lang jeje headphones xD
UPDATE: OMG! Chammy really bought me Hello Kitty earphones! YEEEEY!

 

 9. Pink Flip Cover for my Blackberry Curve 8520. I want a new case. And I want something that protects the front as well. My screen protector's all scratched up already just after a few days since I put it on.


^ A plain one will do. :)

10. Lip balm. My lips' all chapped. I prefer Lipsmackers. :))

11. Goldilocks' Classic Polvoron. I just love love love love it! My current craving this season. :9 Got mine already thanks to my dad! :D

^That box! Nomnomnom.

12. Dunkin' Donuts' Nutty Chocolate! My lifetime favorite! :))
Dream come true!! A DOZEN DUNKIN NUTTY CHOCO! :))) Thank you, Nina, Frances, Jorlene, Jasmine and Myraaaa!! :* >:D<

13. Hello Panda Chocolate. Sorry, this is the last food that I will be listing. :P I just love sweets. :))

14. SHOES! Oxfords, Boots, Heels, Flats, Sandals name it! HAHA. I'm a size 5 1/2 or 6 btw. :>

15. Unique rings and necklaces! I am hunting for lots of it! Especially those that's really cute and different! No photo neessary. Nah, I'm just lazy. :))

 16. Dresses, Tops, Skirts, or anything from Forever 21! Or any outfit at all! As long as it's fashionable. :>
UPDATE: I already got to shop a lot of clothes so... but i'm still accepting! :))

17. BAGS!! Lots of it! :)) I prefer designer ones. HAHAHA.

18. DVDs of GG, 90210, Priveleged, Ugly Betty and many more series and movies!

19. An autograph of Ian Somehalder. Better yet, he would greet me on my birthday! or just tweet me. :">

20. MY FINAL WISH. To go to the 2011 World Youth Day in Madrid, Spain. I need $2,000.00!!! Help me!!

Well, that's it. 20 wishes for my 20th year. Hope i get one of it. :>

burnt

Right now, I our house smells burnt. Because someone forgot to get the cinnamon out of the oven and got it overcooked. Then i realized, our relationship is starting to burn us out. All the fighting, shouting, nagging, I'm so sick of it. I just wanna close the door, and be alone. even  if i still smell the burnt aroma. I just wanna sit here, waiting for it to go away, for us to be back to normal (whatever is normal for us). I just wish that whenever there is something you are going to be mad about, don't blame me.

ako lang

hindi ko ginustong mangyari yon, hindi kasi tayo pareho ng pananaw. hindi niyo din naman kasi alam ang nararamdaman ko. patas lang naman tayo. pareho tayong tao. nauna lang kayo sakin. ang respeto na sinasabi niyo ay hindi ko kaagad maibibigay sa inyo kahit matanda kayo sa kin. eh kung tratuhin niyo naman ako wala din respeto diba? intindihin niyo muna yon. sigurado, maiintindihan niyo na ko. oo alam ko masama akong tao. hypocrite. conceited. selfish. proud. angry. at kung ano ano pa. alam ko yon. pero kahit alam kong masama akong tao, kahit alam kong masama ang ginagawa ko at taliwas ito sa sinasabi ko, ewan ko. hindi rin naman kasi madaling magbago ang isang tao eh. lalo na kung pati ang kanyang paligid ay pinahihirapan siyang magbago. pilit siyang nakakagawa ng masama dahil dito. pilit siyang hindi naiintindihan ng tayo. pilit akong nasisira at nawawala sa mundo. ewan ko. sabi ko kayo lang at ako ang isusulat ko pero nalabas ko na pati galit ko sa mundo. marihap naman kasi talaga. hindi naman kasi ako tanggap. hindi nila ko tanggap dahil di nila ko naiintindihan. hindi nila alam kung ano ang pananaw ko. iba kasi ako. weird. iba kasi ako. emotional. iba kasi ako. dramatic. iba kasi ako. iyakin. iba kasi ako. basta iba ako. masyado kasi akong nagbibigay kahulugan kahit sa napakasimpleng bagay lang. kahit ano, sabihan mo ko,lokohin mo ko, asarin mo ko, iiyak na ang puso ko. ganun akong tao. hindi ko naman kasi maintindihan ang point kung bakit kelangan mong mangasar o manloko ng tao. hindi ko din alam kung bakit sila ay hindi naaapektuhan nito. pero masama din ako. nangaasar din ako kaya mukang parusa na sakin ang masaktan.
napakalabo lang ng isinusulat ko. hindi niyo to maiintindihan. ako lang.